Does Distance Really Make the Heart Grow Fonder? It Sure Does :-)

This past month has been a rollercoaster of emotions. We recently officially started to try and have a baby. I went off my birth control and last month was my first month in 5 years without any form of birth control. I was on the depo shot for 5 years and that screwed up my hormones and my cycle bad but after a year of taking the pill to regulate my cycle I think my body has finally caught up to where it should be. We were trying this whole last month to have a little one but we didnt have any luck this month. I have heard it can take up to 90 days for the birth control to get completely out of my system so I am going to not worry until its been 4 months with no luck. But since my cycle is back to normal thats good news and it gets me just that much closer to a baby. You could definitely say we are having baby fever.lol. My weight loss came to a stand still because my vehicle doesnt work and mike has been working extremely late nights the past 2 weeks so I wasnt able to go to the gym. I tried working out at home but didnt have as much luck at home as I do at the gym. I didnt gain any weight which is good but I havent really lost any either. Then this whole budget crap was uber stressful. I am so glad the government didnt shut down because I have no clue how my family would have survived without mike getting paid. Thankfully they passed it and now we will get paid like normal but who knows what will happen when the next budget goes into place in September. We just found about deployment finally. I cant say when exactly but it will be within this year and he is going to the middle east.lol. Since we know he will be deploying that means me and the dog will end up going back to my hometown. I would much rather have my hubs with me than going home but it will only be a year then hopefully I wont have to say goodbye to my love. That is the day I wait for and look forward to with all my might. We say goodbye now so we wont have to in the future. I just pray for his safety whenever he is away from me. I will have his truck for a few weeks while he is away training and in those few weeks I want to loose another pant size and get around to where I was when we got married. I cant wait for him to be home thats all that I know for sure. We have been married almost 3 years and he has probably been gone over half of that time. I just look forward to the day when we see each other so much we get sick of it.lol. To the day when I no longer have to see him walk away. To the day when we can grow old together instead of apart. Any military wife knows how I feel. But I do all of this because I love him and I would rather be with him and him leave for a short while then not be with him at all. Whats a year when you have your whole lives together!!!

Day Off....

So as you may know i have been on a diet and working out like crazy to drop this weight. Well my husband and had talked about in the past to have cheat day once every two weeks so we dont get burned out from the diet. Well last night was our cheat day. Hubs got his Buffalo chicken and I got a burger with a shake and to be honest it wasnt as good as I remember it being when I was eating like that all the time. Mike agreed with me and now we have been sick like all day today since eating that for dinner. Like I have no clue how we used to eat like that more than once a week. Its just not natural for our bodies to ingest all that grease and fat and I know for a fact thats why I was always sick when I was eating all that crap. I cant tell you how much better I feel since switching my diet. From just eating that one time like that my stomach has been like so upset today and like I just feel all sluggish. So I am pretty sure the next cheat day I am not going to eat that kind of meal again. So like I wanted to share my decision with pretty much cutting out great and fatty food for good!!!

He Did It!!!

So my husband got pinned E-5 SGT friday before he came home from work!! I am so excited and proud of him. He has been working his butt off these past 3 years and I am so happy the time and energy he has put into it is finally paying off for him. I honestly dont know anyone who deserved it more. You see my husband takes pride in his job and I know for a fact he will make an amazing NCO because he cares about his soldiers and will do everything he can to help them. He is the most amazing person I have ever met and I can honestly say my life is so much better since he came into it. He has brought so much love and joy to my life and I wouldnt be the same without him. I met him over 7 years ago and I cant say these past 7 years have been perfect but things that happened in our past and between us made us who we are now. I dont think our relationship would be half as good as it is now if not for the choices we made in our past. We have been through a roller coaster of emotions and I love him more today than I did yesterday and I will love him more tomorrow than I did today. But to what I was saying, he is a great man and I know without a shadow of doubt he will be an amazing leader and will do what he can to be there and help his soldiers. I am so proud and honored to be his wife!!

New Beginnings!

So its been a while since I have posted anything. Lets see, a lot has happened since October. In December my husband went to a promotion board and passed with only 24 hours of studying and I am so proud of him. We have been waiting since then for him to make points so he can become an NCO. He made points for Jan but wasn't able to get all the paperwork in in time. He made points in Feb and has been waiting to get pinned, which has been a bunch of drama and people not knowing how to do their job.lol. But we are hoping by the end of this month he can officially be Sgt Williams!! We want to get it done before the 1st of March because he is wanting to reenlist and that needs to be March 1st. We are trying to pay all of our credit cards off so we can be debt free! That will be nice to no longer have credit cards! I really cant wait to be debt free because I have to buy a new car for me. My explorer took a crap on me and died so I have to get a new one because living on one car is not easy. I know what I want but Idk if it will be what we get.lol. I am completely in love with the Mini Cooper and I want to find a used one. Mike said we will get it if its what I want, such a sweetheart! We recently started working out daily and eating so much better and watching how much we eat. Its been nice and I have been having a lot more energy since we started it. I have lost around 20 pounds so far so thats GREAT!!! I know I have been so sore I can barely move because its been so long since I have worked out my muscles like this. Mike has been trying to lose a little but gain muscle. Me, I just want to lose some fat.lol. All this pain and not eating grease will be worth it once I get to where I want to be. We all are trying to get healthy, even our dog! We have out her on a diet and trying to get her more exercise, she like her momma is overweight and she needs to lose about 20-25 pounds. Its going to take a while for her but we want her to be healthy and live for 20 years! We have been talking more about having a little one. I want to be a mom but at the same time I am scared for it to not be just the two of us anymore. Its only been us for over 7 years and it just makes me worry how we will handle it. I think we will be really great parents and we will love our baby more than anything but Idk I guess sometimes I wonder if it will take a toll on our relationship. I am probably just worrying for nothing but its something I think about sometimes. I know we have decided that this cycle of birth control I am on will be my last. I dont see us getting pregnant fast, especially since I have been on birth control continuously for the past 5 years. I am pretty nervous that its going to be hard for us to get pregnant because endometriosis runs in my family and my mom thinks I might have it. And on top of all of this my husband is deploying again sometime within the next 7 months, I cant say the exact month or time frame due to OPSEC rules. This not stating stuff like training and deployment times to keep our soldiers safe. This will be our second deployment, everyone says it will be easier but I dont think it will be. Its hard for me to be away from him for a week let alone for a year or longer. We still dont know when he is leaving which is irritating to say the least. Since he is trying to get healthy he has decided to quit tobacco which surprised me. Its not a secret I dont like it but its one of the few things that helps him calm down at work with how stressful his job is. It shocked me when I asked if he needed me to pick up anymore and he said nope I quit. He has been using these nicorette lozenges and they help some but he has been really moody since he quit the tobacco.lol. But I will live with a crappy husband than a tobacco using husband.lol. I think that is pretty much it for now. I am going to try my hardest to keep this updated from now on.