Does Distance Really Make the Heart Grow Fonder? It Sure Does :-)

This past month has been a rollercoaster of emotions. We recently officially started to try and have a baby. I went off my birth control and last month was my first month in 5 years without any form of birth control. I was on the depo shot for 5 years and that screwed up my hormones and my cycle bad but after a year of taking the pill to regulate my cycle I think my body has finally caught up to where it should be. We were trying this whole last month to have a little one but we didnt have any luck this month. I have heard it can take up to 90 days for the birth control to get completely out of my system so I am going to not worry until its been 4 months with no luck. But since my cycle is back to normal thats good news and it gets me just that much closer to a baby. You could definitely say we are having baby fever.lol. My weight loss came to a stand still because my vehicle doesnt work and mike has been working extremely late nights the past 2 weeks so I wasnt able to go to the gym. I tried working out at home but didnt have as much luck at home as I do at the gym. I didnt gain any weight which is good but I havent really lost any either. Then this whole budget crap was uber stressful. I am so glad the government didnt shut down because I have no clue how my family would have survived without mike getting paid. Thankfully they passed it and now we will get paid like normal but who knows what will happen when the next budget goes into place in September. We just found about deployment finally. I cant say when exactly but it will be within this year and he is going to the middle east.lol. Since we know he will be deploying that means me and the dog will end up going back to my hometown. I would much rather have my hubs with me than going home but it will only be a year then hopefully I wont have to say goodbye to my love. That is the day I wait for and look forward to with all my might. We say goodbye now so we wont have to in the future. I just pray for his safety whenever he is away from me. I will have his truck for a few weeks while he is away training and in those few weeks I want to loose another pant size and get around to where I was when we got married. I cant wait for him to be home thats all that I know for sure. We have been married almost 3 years and he has probably been gone over half of that time. I just look forward to the day when we see each other so much we get sick of it.lol. To the day when I no longer have to see him walk away. To the day when we can grow old together instead of apart. Any military wife knows how I feel. But I do all of this because I love him and I would rather be with him and him leave for a short while then not be with him at all. Whats a year when you have your whole lives together!!!